Tofurky Day.

LOL. Just kidding. Tofu, no matter how fucking extreme vegan or whatever you are tofu tastes like shit.
But today is Thanksgiving. And it's a day to be Thankful or whatever.
And so here's a list of all of the things that I am thankful for.
*warning. This list is a compilation of sarcastic and serious list making noteworthy things. So I'm either giong to look like a cynical bitch or someone who is suck a prick that I'm ridiculously happy over every fucking thing. Wow the list hasn't even started and I'm already cussing.




LET THE LIST OF THANKFULNESS BEGIN!

• Food. I fucking love food. If it wasn't for food I'd probably be skinnier than I already am. But damn, I flucking love to eat. My favorite foods are anything served during Thanksgiving. And I guess vegan. Eh. I'm a cheater vegan.
• My mother being all M.I.A. well she's not missing in action because no one really misses her to be honest. (Well, I kinda do... but we don't need to discuss that.)
• Hank. I fricken LOVE hank. I fricken love catrs. But Hank is like HANK. He's the best EVER. 
• Having the ability to shove different foods inside of other foods. Like the chicken inside of the duck inside of the turkey and then shoved into a giant fish. I love food combinations. Especially ones that taste good. 

You know what. I can't remember what i was thankful for.

So you know what?

While all of you are saying thank you, I'm going to say

You're Welcome! Because I'm so great and I know that all of you are  thankful for having me in your lives.

Because I'm the greatest. Ever.

And i guess i'm thankful for all of you too ;)

No really, I am thankful for all of you. 

Having all of you in my life is so absolutely wonderful and I just love all of you so much, 

Vegan Schmegan.

I have always wanted to be vegan.
So Guess what Yo.
I'm gonna go vegan.
Hellz yeah.
Shit man.
Haha.
I went from vegetarian.
To picky eater.
To Vegan.
I just love all of the animals SO MUCH!
So here's to being vegan.
Hallelujah.

Goodbye Social Life.

Well. I have a job, right? Right. Well actually I have two jobs. Though only one is scheduling me right now.
What does my work schedule for next week look like?
Well sort of like this.
Monday November 21: 9 am-2 pm
Tuesday November 22: 5 pm- Close.
Friday November 25: 3 am- 12 pm.
Yep.
Welcome to the work life I guess right?
I have never not even once in my  life ever participated in Black Friday.
But here I am about to work it.
strange. I'm really excited though. I'm going to need like straight shots of caffeine! Wahoo!
And probably a before work nap.

So last night I went to Improv, it's something that I go to fairly regularely. It's hilarious so why not go and every thursday this month it's FREE. So why the hell not? And besides long form is my favorite. Free+Longform=Happy Morgan (: haha
So I went last night with Amber, her sister Nikki, and Joey. I wanted them all to meet and be all friendly and such but it didn't really go that way. There was some awkwardness and idk Amber and I were kinda upset with eachother so yeah.
I don't know. It was fun over all I think. I had fun and I think that's all that matters really (:

There was something else I wanted to say btu i can't remember.
Oh well.
happy friday everyone!

It's not 11:11 anymore.

So recently it was eleven/eleven/eleven.
So it was the big day to make a big wish right? Right. And boy oh boy did I make a wish.
Kinda....
Well i missed the first round of serious wishing, and ALMOST missed the second round of intense wishes.
So anyways, I'm not going to inform all of you of what I wished for in those blissful sixty seconds.
But I can surely tell you that I did not waste my sixty seconds of wishing. I wished and wished and wished my little heart out,
and maybe my wish will come true or maybe it was just an interesting day to do interesting things.

I also saw my counselor that day on eleven eleven and told her how my mother was living in my closet for a week. And she laughed for a few minutes and was like, "You're serious?' and I said, "Yes." and then we chuckled for a minute or two. I was the first person that had ever told her that their mother was living in their closet. Which I found very interesting and a little bit sad. Sad because I was the only one who has ever had this experience. But now that I think about that, I feel better knowing that I'm the only one who has gone through such an experience. I would be sad had anyone else been in this sort of situation of being manipulated by their mother. It's sad and I'm learning that as I am slowly becoming an adult I need to set these boundaries with my mother and let her know that she is an adult and needs to learn to take care of herself and not rely on me when her lifes gone to shit. Or something like that.
And I'm learning to be more assertive. Kind of. I'm starting small. Like with telling people my likes and dislikes. and things like that. And the more I discover about myself and this assertiveness and this whole, "I like grapes. WHOA. I LIKE grapes." You know? I like grapes, but I prefer the green grapes. They're delicious. Yum.

I have a job. Well, actually.I have two jobs right now. And they're magically right across from each other. I work at Icing and Wet Seal. A sales associate at both, though I think I run cashier at Icing but not at Wet Seal. I'm excited. I officially start at Wet Seal on Friday. I work at nine in the morning until two in the afternoon. It's going to be a fun day (:

I'm also addicted to the show misfits. It's this british show. It's really cool. I wish I could just like show it to everyone.

"I've got his heart. I mean that when he died, they ripped his heart out and stuck it in me."

I feel weird today. I feel weird all of the time.
I'm just a weird person.
Weird.
It looks like Wired.
Hank, my cat, is hopping off and on the couch and making weird purring noises as he does.
They're adorable.

Oh this cat snuck into my grandmothers house and had kittens. and now my grandma wants to keep this cat  but get rid of the kittens. I want one of the kittens. I want it sooo bad.

Goodnigth.

Stendhal Syndrome.

There is this thing called Stendhal Syndrome. Dont know what it is? Google it. Basically it’s when you see something so beautiful and moving that you burst into tears and emotions at the sight of it.

Today I had finally achieved stendhal syndrome. It has been my life goal to find something that would move me so much that I would burst into tears. 

And today I had. 

I saw the first two volumes of Les Miserables by Victor Hugo and I picked it up. And I wept. There was this sudden emotion that flooded into my being and I wept and wept inside of this old antique and used bookstore. 

But I held it in my hands and read the first three pages and cried and cried silently to myself. 

It was so beautiful and pure. 

I don't look the way pretty girls look.

I don't look the way that the other pretty girls look. I'm not saying that I'm not pretty.
I'm just not traditionally pretty. And you may be thinking, "Morgan, what does this have to do with anything?" well, I'm just letting you know that everyone is beautiful. Beyond beautiful even. We're all magnificent creatures and yes, even you are a magnificent creature with the potential to do anything that you will and have already dreamed of.

So onto other things.


Today I spent the whole day with my grandmother. My filipino grandmother and she's just absolutely wonderful. She's so inspiring and just ah. Amazing. She told me today that someday, when she's ready to look back on her past, she is going to have me write her biography. I'm really excited because she has one of the most interesting lives I've ever heard about. I mean like, gosh. i dont even know. She's just gone through it all. She had children at a very young age. She was married at a young age to a very very very old man. She moved from her home in the Philippines to California to Minnesota USA. Which is an alarming change if you ask me.
And today I asked her if she's ever been in love, and she said
No.
And it made me sad, because. She's never been in love. She loves my grandpa to no end. She is sad and empty when she's not with him and when she's with him she wants to kill him, but she still said that she's not in love with him. That made me so sad. She's never been IN love. But then again, she's loved and continues to love people and everyone around her and her kinda sorta husband. And she just gives and gives as much as she can. She's a beautiful woman and I love her so absolutely much with my entire heart. And she just inspires me all of the time and she's just so wonderful. She's spunky and crazy and says funny things.

And I was going to blog about how I saw my middle school orchestra teacher but I'm tired now.
Goodnight.

Parenthetical Citations.

What to blog about. What to blog about.
WHAT TO FUCKIN' BLOG ABOUT.


This is a very good question. So I guess I'll just tell all of you what's been going on in my wonderful life.
Weelllllllll. They doubled my dosage on my meds. From ten to twenty. And I think it's helping. I mean I've only been doing that for like three days, but I guess I feel different. I feel like me. If that makes sense. I just have lost patience for like everything in my life. I have no patience to take pictures, or draw or write or color or even sit around and procrastinate from doing the things that I love. It's not that I have to be doing anything, I just think so much it's like one hundred words in one second and I don't know what to do with all of it. I dont' know what to do about all of these words in my head or all of the things that I want to say or should have said or should be doing or want to do or should be doing or what i don't know. It's just so much going on in my head and so much going on in my life.  But not at the same time. I feel like even though there ar things going on that are out of my control and things that I want to change and can't or dont' feel like i'm in the power to change or I should change because i don't feel like I'm supposed to be the one to change the thing. so yeah. I hope that all made sense, though I'm not sure if it really did. But that's okay. I guess.

Alright. there were other things that oh.,Okay. So Joseph billings is going to let me put make up on him. Guess who's excited? ME. Like OH MY GOD. I cannot wait. I don't know what I'm going to do, but like I'm so excited. We have, shit. I was going to say that we have the same color hair and eyes so it will be easy to do his make up but we dont' just the same color hair and his eyes are green? I don't know. His eyes are lighter than mine. Everyones are. So I must think of something. Ohhhhhhhh. Green eyes look good with green and browns? Greens fo'sho. So maybe I do some greens. It's going to be a great day. Oh yeah all of this is going to happen on tuesday; GIRLY MAKE OVER DAY TIME SLEEP OVER DAY :D It's going to be great.

Today I went climbing again. and it was really fun. Auntie came with along with faith and it was cool. So yeah,
I should be doing homework but I'm blogging. and not doing homework and now I'm watching a movie kinda. So yeah. So yeah. So yeah. So. Yeah.

yesterday was Guy Fawkes day and on the eleventhh it's going to be eleven-eleven-eleven so at eleven you must make a wonderful wish. And then there's thanksgiving this month. And just ah. I love November. It's the greatest month every.
I'm watching V for Vendetta. so I guess I'll be done.

Before you die...

Dear blog worthy blog readers,
I am so  very sorry for not posting recently. I have been busy... on tumblr.
I know. I told you guys, once i started doing tumblr then I would stop blogging. And look at me! I'm pitiful.
(Though my tumblr is really cool and you should check it out and follow and shit. cause it's the shit.)
So anyways. I've been busy with other things besides tumblr too. I've been trick or treating, and making dresses and doing cool things.
Like today I went climbing with my friend Joey and found out that I was a natural climber. Like seriously.
This morning 5.10 (I think.) and 5.8 and those things didn't mean anything at all. But now I'm trying my damnnest to get to a fucking 5.9. Or was it 5.8. I don't remember. But so I climbed one and it was fairly easy and Joey was belaying me down to the ground with the biggest fricken smile on his face. It could be from being able to stare at my butt for like five or so minutes without getting scolded, but I'm going to say that it was more because I was totally fricken boss at  climbing that shit. Or possibly a combination of both. Haha.
But seriously. I've fallen in love with climbing. It's the greatest sport ever. It's like I don't know. It's so cool. And even though I've just started to climb today pretty much, I'm already boss. I know, I'm not gloating so there's no need to tell my ego to calm down, because my ego is calm. It's just really big.

Also I went trick or treating last night. I was a cat. (Images in a second. hold your horses.) The cutest fucking cat that you ever saw too. And I went trick or treating with my younger cousin Faith who went as the most kick as vampire that you ever saw. And I realized that even if I don't get a job anywhere I'll always have a job in costume design because I fuckin' rocked faiths costume. I styled her hair and her make up and made her the best vampire out there. She's twelve or something so I couldn't do a sexy vampire.(That's just vulgar anyways.) but she's in middle school and so I had a feeling that she also didn't want to look absolutely disgusting. (She didn't want blood on her face. So this is where I'm inferring this thought from.)  So I tried to go for a glamour vampire. Not glamour like fashion glamour but you know how vampires are supposed to have this magical power of "glamour" where they just magically have power over you with the way they look because the way they look captivates you and you're not quite sure why? Well that's kinda what I was going for. And I think I achieved it. I wish I had taken photos of it. Though erika might have some... But it was really cool. Her eyes are green so I went with a green/blue color combo to almost blend those colors with her eyes to create this mystical look of fascination and color flow to open her eyes and captivate you and things. So yeah. And then my makeup was cute too. I went with purples to compliment my dark hair and eyes. The only thing I wanted was to keep my eyes round and with a cat-eye eyeliner look. So that's what I did. And a black nose and whiskers. I took better pictures than the ones that I'm posting. And I'll post those later when I find my camera chord. (:

I know. I'm the cutest thing you've ever seen.